you've now tainted my memories of you
they weren't yours to fuck around with,
but now there's no way to make them new
every moment that i held
still burned a smile on my face,
up until yesterday
a million little things
that touched my heart
today they seem so fake
and the promises,proclamations,whispers
that you made
don't carry a bit of weight
i may have uttered some painful things
when i was tired and hurt
but they don't compare to the things you let me believe-
when you weren't
maybe they were true once,
but your intentions went flat
how can you love someone
then plunge a sword into their back?
the pictures in my head
that contained the memories of love
were undeveloped
and now the bitterness has shown up
i want to seal them back shut
send them back to you
forget they were ever taken,
a reminder in your mailbox
of how many memories i don't want to rifle through
but i know i can't
i don't wish you any pain
i just want someone to overlap
the bricks of tears you've laid in my past
goodbye.

Est.3/22/99